i'm really so happy now. i'm just sitting in the middle of the brunchbowl in lse & i can't wipe this silly grin off my face. i think life is wonderful. its simple, fulfilling, exciting and carefree. its been such a fantastic start to this academic year that i can barely believe it. hahaha. i love my house, my room, and chor ming has been an absolute darling as a housemate. i signed up for my japanese course, i'm going to start my ballroom again. i'm into my 4th week and i'm still doing my readings (not everything punctually, but i'm making the effort). i'm attempting to walk more, gym more, and i think i've lost weight. grins. i'm heading up to notts e following weekend, i'm dressing up as a jap sch girl to joyce's english sch girl for halloween on fri, dinner with christopher de souza on fri, primrose hill on sat & everything. gosh i love my life. hahaha.

this year is going to be different (: i can feel it. i'm doing things. making the effort. and it makes me feel so much better about myself, and the money i'm spending being here. i'm really living.

hahaha. all this happy blabbering sounds so unlike me. grins.

e only spot of unhappiness is the lack of a ballroom partner. but i will persevere and find one :p

i must say.. that moving up one rung on this age ladder, makes me realise how self-sufficient, independent and self-reliant i can be. i don't need someone to hold my hand, tell me they love me, or push me forward. i don't need a special person to buy me a ring (though it'd be nice). i can buy my own rings. i can walk the path alone.. sufficiently happily & carefree-ly. i might not be the absolute happiest i could possibly be, but i'm genuinely really happy where i am in life. i look at the ring on my finger and i think about how far i've come, what i've achieved, and how far i can go. and it really makes me feel like i've achieved something with my life. i've done things, gone places, created memories that will accompany me for the rest of my life. and no one can ever take that away from me.

did i mention i love my daddy (:

teeheehee (((: i'm such a happy high person. i love being high. i went to chor ming's room and giggled & rolled around on his bed making such a fool out of myself just now. but it was SO FUN TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!! heee. i loved it. who needs fuckers when you have friends who willl brave negative zero temperatures & snow for you (((: alison, michelle & pat who brought me e gorgeous cake! angela, kaylene, chor ming, lynn, ashraf, lydia, yangqi, joyce, kenneth & shib for e dinner & drinks. natasha & chih chwen who came for drinks then went off with us to verve. chongs, viola, goldfish, marcjo, zach, minshin, jinpeng, jialing & all e crazy ucl ppl who sang so bloody loudly in verve 'happy birthday' to me.

THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR MAKING MY BIRTHDAY SUCH A SMASHING ONE. i never had such an amazing birthday so filled with surprises (((: oh i love my friends.

pictures up once my dell laptop comes back. muacks


[edit] i can't believe what i just did. hahaha. first time in a damn long time. part of the birthday buzz. i'm more sober than ever, and yet higher on a different level. and i'm shivering too. its so cold tonight. hahaha. one time only. you'd be terriblty upset with me though. [/edit]

wwx can finally differentiate wonder girls. says:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAO DA!

huihui. is going kuku %D says:
HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYYYY LAO DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

char says:
happy birthday you!

wj*- wildshootingstar - i love my friends (: 20 20 20 20 says:
hahaha. my juniors are in my room
peng says:
doing what?
wj*- wildshootingstar - i love my friends (: 20 20 20 20 says:
to wish me happy birthday friend
wj*- wildshootingstar - i love my friends (: 20 20 20 20 says:
-.-
peng says:
OH
peng says:
HAHAHAHAH
peng says:
i am too sleepy
peng says:
happy birthday
wj*- wildshootingstar - i love my friends (: 20 20 20 20 says:
hurhurr
wj*- wildshootingstar - i love my friends (: 20 20 20 20 says:
hahaha
wj*- wildshootingstar - i love my friends (: 20 20 20 20 says:
what a lovely friend you are

Lynn 39- 41 Leather Lane! ت says:
i hope u enjoyed yourself on your very very special dayyy
Lynn 39- 41 Leather Lane! ت says:
once again, happy 20th sweetie(:

twenty. what an odd age to be :p its like you're neither here, nor there. not a legal adult, but neither a teen. you're just twenty. haha. but yes, with my birthday, my wisdom teeth growing out & e entry into e 3rd decade of my life.. i hope that i will always stay e same, growing abit wiser though & always be a kid at heart (: hahaha. my wish for this yr: is more travels, mor ehappiness, same friends, growing love & healthy & happy family.

i love my friends. my lovely lovely friends (: who just feels my heart up with so much love. to those who have just wished me happy birthday, jerrine, chor ming (who came in with a cupcake & present at 12), angela, minshin, cuiyin, the two most adorable girls: viola & goldfish who came to my place to wish me happy birthday & give me present (((: shib, pat, justin, bessie & so many so many more. gosh. i'm overwhelmed (((: hee. thank you my loves.

happy birthday to me.

oh yes, i've started my blog about london things. nothing much is up yet, but do take a look whenever (:

london loving

sitting here at night. watching gossip girl. brings up a few random thoughts. 1) i want to shop (again what is new), 2) i want to go to nyc (which is looking to be easter break, woohoo. mad happy nyc fun with dione. grins. i miss that crazy sexy girl of mine. smirks), 3) my father issues, which have decreased over this last year. ever since i could stand up to my dad, and make him treat me like an equal. 4) missing my family back home (don't think i ever really said this), 5) planning like a crazy bitch my michaelmas term weekends. grins. i like

weekend schedule
1st weekend - primrose hill with joyce & kenneth & hampstead heath
2nd weekend - marylebone wandering
3rd weekend - nottingham with angie baby
4th weekend - 2 su su's coming down. yayyyyyyy (: maybe i can drag him on a day trip to paris
5th weekend - hopefully stratford-upon-avon (Shakespeare's birthplace) with my a&g interns
6th weekend - stockhol with shib
7th weekend - last min shopping + BACK TO SPORE!

oh its looking good (: i'm so so pleased. bounces about.

and then if i'm going nyc in easter break, that leaves reading week free for me to plan ANOTHER trip! woots. maybe one to barcelona or prague. grins. let's see where angela wants to go. heeee. and hopefully squeeze in lisbon with angie in easter after nyc. then santorini & mikonos when yipeng comes in june. yippeee.

i'm loving my life (: can't you tell?

i have e most interesting dreams. i know they definitely reflect what i think about in the day. but seriously, sometimes it just goes wayyyy off tangent. it was like random ppl, random places (eg, mandarin gardens) & interesting feelings. hahaha. but i like waking up on my own, enjoying the last strands of e dream.. and letting all the interesting things wash over me.

such a gloomy day outside today. thank goodness i slept it all away. only kaylene & tsuki's house warming to go for tonight. must do reading ): doinks.

its really quite a disgusting state of health i find myself in. i hate it. i hate coughing until my lungs feel like they're gonna pop, and i taste the coppery taste in my mouth. fuck. only 4 more days left to my birthday, and i'm feeling like shit ):

i must say, my birthday this year lacks that crazy hyped up feeling. maybe cos i'm sick/tired. maybe cos i'm missing ppl. maybe cos i've been so anti-social.

the leaves are falling everywhere. sometimes i just stare at the sky through the sparse branches of the trees and never want to walk away. when i'm here, i feel like there's so much to see, so much i haven't done. so many places in europe i want to see. but yet at the same time, there's so much back home that mean so much to me. conflicted.

hampstead heath next sunday anyone?

i've finished my reading for today (: so i happy. so i've been searching random things looking for a getaway. ahahaha. i think only hongmin, angie or shib will splash out on the things i've been looking at :p

birthday lust list (:

- mr & mrs smith silver membership

- lubitel+

- grey peeptoed miumiu heels

- HEADBANDS (like the ones blair waldorf wears)

- purple roses

- a weekend in the english countryside

- snow

but what i want the most, is to never grow up, get well soon and to have you by my side

freak i'm so addicted to gossipgirl :p the fashion in it is gorgeous. hehee. young fashion too, all e lovely marc by marcjacobs, see by chloe & gorgeous headbands. more affordable shite.

i love blair waldorf. her structured clothes, anal attitude, massive planmaker, bitchy, manipulative, scheming & all. see a few parallels? hahaha. and chuck bass. yummy yummy yummy. the more he schemes, e more i like him. hahaha.

three words, eight letters, say it and i'm yours.

whoosh. i think i'll head down to nottingham following weekend. need to get some fresh air (: angie baby here i come :p

destinations

nottingham (early nov)

stockholm (mid nov)

helsinki? (late nov)

singapore (mid dec)

maybe squeeze in kl/bangkok (late dec)

dubling (late jan)

NYC to see my sexy dione (mid feb)

santorini & mikonos (either mid march or summer depending on when skanky ho comes. smirks)

lisbon (summer)

spain (summer, if mingkie poo comes up)

whoooosh. i want russia though. pouts

oh ming (: saw your entry. no matter what i'll always be around you somewhere, whether you see me or not. and just like trimming your hair so that it can grow faster & healtheir, i'm sure that's what its gonna do for you too. at the end of the day, no matter how twisty paths we have to walk to get there, we will still end up in the same place and be happy. i believe (:

i lub choo! (pun intended. hahaha)

i plan on holding on to my youth for as long as possile. no one says it better than chuck bass. grins. i always did like my boys bad. hahaha.

coughing really needs to stop. it feels like asthma all over again -.- no fun i tell you.

i want to do MORE shopping. grumbles. well actually i've spent quite a fair bit of money alr :p got a pair of jeans, a GORGEOUS pair of yellow mustard & black satin pumps & a ring. i never did believe in waiting for ppl to buy me what i wanted. haha. only thing is those gorgeous miu miu grey peeptoed shell stilettos that i want too. sheesh. i'm trying to find out when my uncle's heading up to paris, then pop up there to find him. bounces (((: hehee.

my weekends are looking very packed for the term. my uncle will be down for a weekend in nov, hopefully a weekend to stockholm with shib, a weekend to either helsinki or somewhere warmer with angela, a weekend up with angie in notts, and then a weekend with angie down here in london. looks good looks good (:

i hate having cramps ):

sometimes when i hear some ppl speak, i just close my eyes and let their voices wash over me. it doesn't matter what they say, or whether i understand anything. its just the tone, depth and pitch of their voices make me all warm & squishy inside. smirks.

guess who's getting an asus eee pc :p hahaha, its arriving thurs. whoopee. so at least i have some form of substitute till my superduperpowermachine comes back. grins.

hello my friends (((: won't someone buy me a lubitel+ for my birthday, or a trip to anywhere (well not wales) but yes. i will love you to the end of the world and back.

screw: my lucky star is hanging on my wall now (: i miss you & love you!

i don't like perfect people. they scare me. and they are just so boring and 2D sometimes.. shrugs.

damaged and twisty. when meredith said that, gosh that felt like such an apt description of everything. and hence the rejection of anything non-damaged or non-twisty. hah.

my chest hurts from all the coughing and hacking. i'm tired of this happening every term, and this time i didn't do anything -.- sighs.

but at least my heart is warm with the love from my friends.

chor ming's been a super nice flatmate (:

i've had it with immature ppl. seriously.

omfg. i spilled a glass of water on my laptop and it went ZZSSHHHTT. and now its erh dead. so yes. the only time i get internet time is on chor ming's laptop or in school. wtf. my laptop's gonna be fedexed back to spore, fixed then fedexed back. sad case. it takes fucking 7 days to just process the warranty shit in london larh. omg. sighs.

i'm depressed about my laptop.

thank god for angie who's here this weekend.

i'm feeling rather accomplished and proud of myself so far :DDDD hahaha. i built my bookcase, tidied up my room, did my readings, cleaned up my kitchen, organised everything nicely and all. haha, plus i got the changes for my pil class that i wanted. this year has really started out well (((: PLUS! dinner + raffles night prep with shib tmr, icebar & dinner with angela & co on thurs, angie's heading down on fri + raffles night, and LOVELY LOVELY weekend with angie on sat & sun. whee i can't wait. just that i'll be dead tired. doinks (: bit is a happy kinda tired. heee.

i'm sitting in school, using wireless. this is sad. the guy next to me is having math tuition, and doesn't even know that pi = 180 degrees. whoopee -.-

but yes, i'm loading my tv episodes so i can go home to watch so that i won't be bored silly over e weekend without internet. well actually with dates with shib, sonya, angela & kaleni, plus auditions for ballroom.. i should be quite busy :p AND READING TO DO. sighs. but the best news i got is that lse agreed to change my 9am public international law class. YESSSS. ahahaha. i just pray they don't put it on friday -.- cos i get every friday off. doinks.

i've been feeling really proud of myself actually. i built this whole bookcase by myself. nails, hammer, screws, screwdriver & all. made me realise how self-sufficient and independent i am actually. i suppose it is some sort of consolation that at the end of day, i definitely will survive on my own. shrugs.

raffles night!!! everyone in uk who's reading this, PLEASE COME!!!

ello ello (((: gosh how reliant we've all become on internet. its ridiculous i tell you. cos almost all of us who just moved into new houses have no internet -.- so its like we're all dyinggggg. thank god for pre-loaded anime onto my laptop (whahaha) and korean dvds. smirks. and for free wireless in school. sheesh. SAD man. so yes, excuse me if i've become temporarily uncontactable. do call me at my uk no. i miss everyone ):

and so my 20th summer's over. into my 21st autumn/winter i go.

where the hell has time gone..

time to head back to london. i don't dread it, but neither am i really looking forward to it really. its just a duty-bound thing. but i'm looking forward to alone time (not that i'm not alone now), cool weather, and traveling.

i really didn't like the way i lived my life last year. so this year, i'm gonna do it right (:

so long my friends (: i'll see you all in 10 weeks. hahaha.

so happy so happy so happy.

if i could just sit on that U shaped couch forever. with my four. i think my heart would burst with happiness. last night, heart swell so much till it almost. but it was a good kind of hurt (: